May 9, 2008. today was ABSOLUTLY horrible. i never knew i could feel so much pain all in one day. im sorry you cant trust me. but do you really expect me to keep so many secrets from my BEST friend? you tell Andy everything dont you. i dont get mad. im sorry. i didnt kno i could cry for so long. all day. imma miss those times we spent together. all those walks home. our babies. our mall times. the movies. at carls jr. times we sneaked making out and sometimes we got caught. our phone calls. late night convos about stupid shit. our fights. your kisses. your hugs. we had so much planned out. our future together. our promises are now broken. our summer. our plans. we had so much. almost 9months. all that now dissappeared. i kno you couldnt handle it anymore. but at least we coulda tried. i loved you so much. i dont even kno if this is a fer shure thing. i didnt want it to end. ill never forget any of it tho. i dont regret going out with you. your my first love. ill remember it always. expecially our flower in the creek. ill never forget that. that was such a special moment. our first valentines day. our first christmas together. our first everything. ill never forget you. ill love you for all and eternity. even tho i think that we coulda lasted stronger.. i guess i have to support your choice. in order to love someone, you have to respect their decision.. so i guess i have to let you go. but i cant..i can barely look at you, or your family, or any of your best friends. they all remind me of you. its that bad. i packed all your stuff, and put it in a box. i cant look at it. none of our pictures. none of your shirts, or necklace, or anything.. i kept our babies out tho.. they dont deserve to be in a box. they didnt do anything wrong.. i love you. Ralph.. its sad i cant call you babe or baby anymore..i love you.

today was ABSOLUTLY horrible. i never knew i could feel so much pain all in one day. im sorry you cant trust me. but do you really expect me to keep so many secrets from my BEST friend? you tell Andy everything dont you. i dont get mad. im sorry. i didnt kno i could cry for so long. all day. imma miss those times we spent together. all those walks home. our babies. our mall times. the movies. at carls jr. times we sneaked making out and sometimes we got caught. our phone calls. late night convos about stupid shit. our fights. your kisses. your hugs. we had so much planned out. our future together. our promises are now broken. our summer. our plans. we had so much. almost 9months. all that now dissappeared. i kno you couldnt handle it anymore. but at least we coulda tried. i loved you so much. i dont even kno if this is a fer shure thing. i didnt want it to end. ill never forget any of it tho. i dont regret going out with you. your my first love. ill remember it always. expecially our flower in the creek. ill never forget that. that was such a special moment. our first valentines day. our first christmas together. our first everything. ill never forget you. ill love you for all and eternity. even tho i think that we coulda lasted stronger.. i guess i have to support your choice. in order to love someone, you have to respect their decision.. so i guess i have to let you go. but i cant..



i can barely look at you, or your family, or any of your best friends. they all remind me of you. its that bad. i packed all your stuff, and put it in a box. i cant look at it. none of our pictures. none of your shirts, or necklace, or anything.. i kept our babies out tho.. they dont deserve to be in a box. they didnt do anything wrong.. i love you. Ralph.. its sad i cant call you babe or baby anymore..

i love you.