its hard to realize..

now, whenever i see you, i start to tear up, but i try to hold it back. whenever i hear your voice, i choke on my words and i dont kno what to say anymore. i dont want to cry anymore. somehow, i wanna forget you but at the same time i juss wanna be with you. the hugs you give me, it feels so right, but yet so wrong cus we are not together. i kno there wont be anymore of those warm kisses you give me each and every day.. its hard to even talk to you right now cus its so different. its hard to explain how i feel about you.. but i want you back. i really doo. but i kno its not that easy. i dont ever kno if we will get back together. but i hope we will. i realize the mistakes i did. and im truly sorry. i dont ever wanna treat you that way ever again. thats why i want you to find another girl. more better than me. i dont deserve you. it hurts me to say that, but its so true. and dont deny it. because if i was the right girl, we would still be together. but no, we arent.


i dont kno if im repeating myself, but what im trying to say is, i cry when i see you, i cry when i hear your voice. i dont want to cry anymore. but i wanna be with you. and, im truly sorry for the wrong things i did to you. and you deserve better. you really do.