ugh .

wow. im patient with you. i give you anything you want. i leave you alone when you need to be. i leave you with your friend when you want to be. i give you space, i give you time. I GIVE GIVE GIVE AND FUCKIN GIVE. im not askin for anything in return, besides a lil attention. i want to feel secured. i want to kno that you "like" me. today, during lunch was the FIRST time you really showed me you cared. then after school, wth ? i grabed you from behind, and you walked away. walked away like i was js somebody else. well ahem. *NEWFLASH ! im not js somebody. IM YOUR GIRLFRIEND. but lately, seems like i dont carry the title of your girlfriend. seems weird. yeah, things have changed since i found out. i FORGAVE you. never mentioned it again. i stayed with you. i was mad at you for a day, when i shouldve been mad for a monthh. yenno, i thought you wouldve showed more, thought you wouldve showed you really want me back. i thought alot of thigs about you. i thought you changed. well, i guess i thought wrong.

ahaha. wow. you dont give me attention. but you give it to her. this week has been shit. i dont show it. but it has. we dont talk. we text. you dont even text me thho, i text you first. then you say "brb" but what. never even a text back. it hurts. yeah it does. alot. you have no idea. its like you talk to __ and __ more than you talk to me. its like your givin all of you to them. not me. its like they're getting your attention. its like im not getting any at all..


whens the last time we said i love you ? hm, 3 weeks ago ? why the sudden stop ? i have no idea. well, i want you to kno i DO love you. i never stopped. since 42607, to 53107. i loved you. all summer, i never forgot about you. when we started our lives together again, on 82307 i fell in love. till 72208, i loved you still. TO THIS DAY, i still love you. never stopped. but you told me not to fall in love. not to get attached. but too late. i already been in love.

i complain alot. thats what i do. you dont hear it tho. havent you noticed anything at all ? you have no idea how long ive been feeling this way. but nope. i dont want to complain to you anymore. cus i kno what you'll say. i kno how you are.



i dont kno anymore..