lockdown.

sucks ass man.
well, at least its not as bad as it was at first. i have SOME freedom. i really fckin miss my phone tho! UGH. so, high school isnt that great, its pretty tiring actually. practices after practices, i never have time for anything anymore. its crazy. I ACTUALLY TAKE NAPS NOW! lol. i never did beforee. band is great (: i love my second family. cheer is doing good too. i love them. OH ! && i love my hula fam(: theyre great. iono what i would do without them.

man, i miss my phone. i have momma's phone currently. so, if ya wanna get at me, ask me for the number. im not gonna put it on here cos some creepy stalker might get it & stalk me. lol.

so, updates! since i prolly havent been talkin to most of you, ill write stuffies on here about what i been doing.


i been doing nothin. (:
jk. uhm, still single. =/
bestfriends are the same, fong, agloro, gomes.
guys ? aaron keanu reyes, nicholas francois baltodano, && nate keck.
good grades still. BANDGEEK. cheerleader. hula/tahitian dancer.
i work hard, && play hard.
millions of friends, but only a few that can be trusted.
life's crazy so far. i hate it at times. but overall, i wouldnt trade with anybody else in the world, cos its MY life. (: & i love it.
even tho its a bitch at times.


BIRTHDAY IS SOON ! september 25th bitches!
yee. i hope i get my phone back. GOD i'd be so happy. i NEED my texting back too.
i miss it.
did i mention i miss my texting ? ERRRRG.
well, iono what else to write.

OH SHOUTOUTS. (;
i miss, my fong, agloro, gomes, denissekim, aaron, simon, nate, gio, nicholas, && i miss everyone else i used to text everyday but dont talk to anymore.
i promise, once i get my phone back, ill text you guys right away!

love you! byee (:

oh my oh my.

where did the time go ? summer went by so quickly. one minute we js promoted from 8th grade at Dover Middle School. then the next minute we're walkin the halls of our new school, Fairfield High. its craazy how fast the time went by. this summer has been boring, but fun at the same time. kickits with neighbors, cousins & his crazy ass friends visiting me. parties. sneakin out & stayin at the lake with guys till like 5 in the morning. sleeping in their arms. breakin friendships, makin up. everything has been goin on. its crazy. i honestly cant wait to start school yet. i love summer, but im ready to go to school again. not for the school work, but for my friends & stuff. im excited for band, & cheerleading. && leadership. that would be lots of fun. ill be busy of course, expecially since i have shit to do outside of school but whatever, cos itll all be worth it in the end. im a bit excited for orientation, but im kindof scared cos idk who ill see! i hope this year is great. js fun, no drama, no fights. js fun. (:

update!

Hmm, iono how long its been since ive updated this shit. & i dont feel like checkin, so whateveerrr. but yeah. lets see, school startin soon. im hellllla juiced. but kindof scared, im not excited to wake up hellla early. anyway, im gettin my new phone soon. YAY ! no more iCrack for me(: im watchin this creepy ass movie. its like called Dead Girl or somethinn. haa. anyway. so, im still single. but whatever, i like it. im havin fun. i lost an important friendship this summer. over something that was pretty bad. but i CANNOT forgive it. i made up with a few people too. leave middle school shit behind yenno? this summer has been basic. js kickits. smoking blunts. getting drunk. tanning. swimming. aint no complicated shit. js whatevaaa. MHMM. so yeah. parents are always cranky. but im dealin with it. getttin payed by doin chores all summer. but all of it is goin to my phone. tryna get more money tho. so i can buy shoes! :D haha. anyway idk.


bye! (:

Hula Picnic thingy.

was funn. i was nervous at first, cos i barely kno anybody. but it was coo. at first, i was like with Shariel & Michelle. funfunfun. then everyone else came, & went on the water slide a few times. heecka fun! got kicked in the head by Micela tho! ERRRRG. ahaha. then went down w. Kamailee. haha it was funny. then Gabby was heccka hyper! running around in the grass (: lol. & it was funny when lexi dances. lmao. i love them muchhho (:

uhhh, idk what else to say.
btw, im hungray.

k byee.

i miss him.

my bestfriend. );
idk if hes my bestfriend still cos we havent talked in awhile. maybe hes replaced me. ehh. we'll see.
but i want you to kno, i miss you. alot.
you'll never be replaced.

Denisse Kim Orino Carios's Haackk (:

this spot is reserved for Denisse Kim Orino Carios (:
I'd Tap that -DenisseKim<3
LMFAO! I'm so dope, that this nigger reserved a spot for me in her profile xDD THAT'S_WASUP thou(: Anywhoo, this girl was given the name of TffanyAnnTran on the date of September 25, the day after my birthday(x jealous much? As you could tell, this girl be a cuutaaaye! Any yess, she turns heads everywhere she goes(: Tiffany is my Loverbabaaay/TWWWIN/BESTERESTfriend/Seestaaar. Ahaha she is a MACC thou, just like her twin(x aha. TskTskTsk. Tiffany has no time for guys that dont make her feel special. So do so, cos youre gonna miss out. I dont kno what i would do without you Ateh Tiff! You are the source of my happiness ^-^ You should hear her sing, ohhmaayn HAWWTNESS(: This girl is the person i could come to for ANYTHAAANG. She is my advice giverer person. LMFAO. We have the funniest phone convos together. haha "Aye Kim, would you ever let anyone finger you if you were on your period?" WTF, right? haha. ANSWER is NOOO. anywhoo, tiffany is the best! And she will never be raplaced, like i already told you bebehh(: You'll regret if you add her, and DONT talk to her, cos whats the point of adding a pretty girl & not talk to her? yeah, haha GET_IT_STRAAIGHT! My fingers are cramping. Ill finish this sometime else. Kay twin? To end this.... BABY, I LOVE ME SOME TIFFANYANNTRAAN.

July 9th.

dheeeeeeeeng. school is almost fcckin here ! ive been hellla lazy, i needa get up & do something. HA. whatevs thoo, ishh cool. So, im currently watching Mulan. i remember, like in the 5th grade, there was a book like that. nojoke! you kno those princess diaries they have at the library ? WELL yeah. they had this asian chick's diary. & i read it. & it was like mulan, except the huns were kindof scarier. they chopped people's heads off. hahah. nicee huh ? NOT. you kno whos hot ? CHANNING TATUM.

OH && that one dude. i forgot his name, the dude that plays Jacob Black. dude, i cannot wait for that fckin movie to come out ! AAAAAAAAH ! & im hellla excited for my first hula recital (: im scared, but excited at the same time.

my mom is all pissy cos she gotta buy heckka stuff. hahah. so my color is pink. ew. jk! i'd rather have like blue or something. but whateverrr.

so BBQ with the Halau is this saturday. im so excited cos i get to see Aj ! (:
haha, we'll have our "Adventure" there. OH BTW ! HE fell asleep first ! not me ! hehe, only Aj knows what im talking about. & Gabby !


BTW ! I LOVE MY TUTOR BUDDDDY ! hahah reunited & it feels so good. damn im so bored.
i wanna learn karate so i can make those funny gruntin sounds. like whenever i kick i go "YA!" or "HEEUH" or whatever. idk how to spell that shit.
i js finished a new book. its called Gone by Michael Grant. it was pretty good. i liked it.

im about to start a new book called Kissed By An Angel by Elizabeth Chandler.
im excited i guesss ?


OOOOWEEE, im hunngray..


kbye (=

cant wait.(:

till i go to high school ! i wanna find my high school sweetheart. hah, i admit i am kindof fruity. i always be lookin at video's on youtube of these girls gettin with sweet ass guys & shit. & im wondering "hmm, when will mine come around?" ha, i guess i gotta wait huh. whatever, its cool. hopefully itll be worth the wait (=

heres my favorite video so far. hahah. its hellla cute tho. c'mon guys, come up with some good ass plans like this (:

confused.

during the fireworks, all i could think of was you. i was wishin you would be there holding me. when i was wathing transformers, all i could think of was you again. your always on my mind. every night & day. thats why i cant have this when your so far away. when i date, i dont wanna have another guy on my mind.

i like you. but your js too fckin far away. i dont wanna be friends w. benifits. the more we do together, the more i get attached. & it js too complicated. i wanna go out & look for other guys. but i cant do that knowing that we're somewhat together. im sorry if i hurt you. but if you didnt get hurt, then good i guess. i wanna be good friends. i never wanna lose contact. whenever you visit, i still wanna kickit. i still wanna talk to you, but none of that "hey baby." or the "other" things we say. i miss you tho. alot. so much, it kindof hurts. it hurt me to tell you that i js wanna be friends, & i cant do this anymore. im sorry.

i miss you tho. alot. Come back Simon Fruithof. so then things wouldnt be so difficult.

Awwh (:

Aj & His friend. aj's playing the guitar. he dedicated this video to me (:

Thee Fouurth.

well lets see, Fourth of July was pretty coo. couldve been bettter but whatever.
i woke up, then got ready. got picked up by Monique, then went to Meagan's cousin's house. kickit there for HELLLA long. then FINALLY went to the marina. hellla people there tho! then met up w. Gio & Elwin. prettty coo i guess. then left. Meagan came over, & we stayed up pretty late. hellla tiring. then woke up in the mornin like at 11 ? went grocery shoppin. then came home, cleaned my upstairs. earned money from mommy! then went shopppang (: YAY ! i finally got my new sleeeepers . then went to go see Transformers . hellla bomb ass movie . haha .then she left, & then late night convo w. Aj again! hellla funn. hes a chill ass guy.

soo, today i was supposed to hang out w. Elwin & Gio. but naah, they flaked ONCE AGAIN. whatevs thoo. i aint trippin.

so im kinda confused. this nigga moved right ? but like, do i let go ? or do i hold on. iono. i dont wanna waste my summer holdin onto someone whos not even here. i miss that nigga tho. but i dont wanna be mean 7 be like "i dont like you anymore" thats hella mean. i care about him tho. ehh, so confused.


im so excited for highschool. well, kindof. im tired of summer. i barely do anything that fun tho! well, i go out alot. but not helllla. eh, i need more plans. lets make some tho! blahh.


im currently watchin Cinderella Story. Hilary Duff was soo much prettier when she was innocent. huh ? i think so. YO ! MEGAN FOX IS HOT. i must say. haha.


8====D (.Y.)

im bored.
kbye.

Summma !

well, lets see. im currently w. FongFong. we're watching Another Cinderella Story.
lets see, not much has been happening. lost a few friendsships. gained a few. got darker. hung out w. different people. stopping bad habts, but getting back onto it. ehh.

hmm. went camping the other week w. Meagan & her familia. hellla much fun. too bad i cant talk about it. ahahaha i promised. (:

thenn, hung out w. neighbors aloot. OH ! hung out w. Simon (: i miss that nigga. cant believe he moved tho. but i hope he visits me often. i needa hang out w. my two favorite guys. Nicholas Baltodano & Aaron Reyes (: haha. i wanna see Trnasformers. i havent seen it yet. have youu ? i wanna see Harry Potter too! take me there (;
im excited for tomorro. i hope i see HIM. then later that night fireworks! w. Meagan & Kalea i thiiink . it should be fun. haha.


im soo hyped for highschool ! but scared at the same time.
did i mentioned i LOVE band. haha. its like my LIFE. haha. i also love hula.

im so excited for the recital in Sept. i needa get my shit together thoo. maang. i hate being behind, thats why Gabby will help me (:


this summer has been okae recently.i wish i had more things to do tho. everybodys always busy or something. im always texting nowadays. haha.

---SHOTOUTS---

hmm. btw, im sorry we're not friends anymore. we had good times. i js cant believe you would do that to mee. its still so wrong. i dont kno if i accept your apology.


NIGGA. i cant believe you moved. i miss your bitch ass. dont forget me.


your my first guy best friend. where'd you go ? i miss you..

FYSL ! haha i love you. nigga, your the coolest dude i ever met. no joke.


my A & F. hahah. i love you guys. nuff' said.


twin. kid, lets kickit. leave all your others, & come to me!

yeah. done ? i guesss.



K BYE (: :D

lalala.

summmer, summer, summer. the weather is finally gettin better (:
i got to swimm today, & tan a bit. i need to get daarker! aghhh, so lets see. for the first week of summer i was w. Meagan almost everyday. & then w. emerald later on too. helllla much funn. then the kickkit w. caahsin henry & jordan & cody was hellla fun too. the sleepover w. emily! then kickkits outside w. themm neighbors (: hella fun thoo. i need more plans. so lets make somee! i hellla wanna get the 3GS yoo (: ima get it. im hungraay . kbye(:

lateee.

another late night convo w. timmay! he's sleepin on the phone, & I'm helllla bored. this nigga moves to much. -__- but yeah. it's Sunday night. tired but can't sleep.
eh.
k night byeee!(:

12-year-old's party.

was surprisingly fun. hahahah. at firs kindof shy w. all these kids. then i got comfortable. played rockband w. sienna. then went into the jummpy! haha. jerked w. little kids is fun(: i ate like a fatsss. ! haha. held babies (: then danced my asss off all the way till 9 PM. it was fun. my weekend is wonderful so far.

dinnerdance.

was amazing!
i havent had this much fun at a school funktion since 6th gradee. at first i was kindof shy to dance, but it was all good. i started dancing w. a bunch of people. thenn hung ouut w. mexicans! haha. i requested Birthday Sex lots of time but they didnt play it. =//. then they slowed thiiings downn. i danced w. Ignacio (: . it was funn. my feet were KIIILLLLING me. after me, karla, & veronica danced to pop, lock, & drop it my thighs were buuurnin up. THEY PLAAYED HOEDOWN THROWDOWN! it was awsome. i actually didnt fall on my ass tonight (: the heels were huuurtin me. it was geettin supper hot as fckk tho. man ima miss you guys. ALL OF YOU GUYS (:. that one mexican song that goes beep alot played! haha we made a train (:. it was fun. thenn at the end everyone started cryyin. i didnt cry but all my friends did. it was like wooow. i was sad. i already kno ima cry on promotion. haha. its all good (: . man im heckkka tireed . cuurrently on the phone w. denisse & chantell. i took lots of piiictures. we look hot (: haha. well k bye !

late night convooo

wifff Timmy! :D he wants me to someethaang nasty. but I ain't bout to put it. it's 11:07PM. it's pretty late but I ain't tired. this foo is keeping me up. (x so school is ending in 2 weeeks! i'm hellllla excited. I got my dresses. shoes. everythaaang.! I'm excited to be a FHS bandgeek too(; thhee fck? this foo is makin weird noises. haha. so blah. I'm bored.

GreatAmerica.

was AAAMAZING. i had the BEST time ever. i spend the ENTIRE day w. Nick Baltodano, Nick Orfitelli, Orlando Estacio, & Pluck Minikalak. i think i spelled it right ? yeauh. we went on i think everything. haha. i got tired after a while. we had a STAALKER ! she wouldnt stop following us. -___- but we got her away after awhile. lol. frickkin pluck wouldnt go on any rides at all ! besides Demon. pusssy. haha jk. my head was going crazy cos the sides would bang on my head! in the arcade nick beat me like at one racing game! and i won the other! there was this one punching bag game. i felt so strong cos the best number i got was like 270 something. better than Orfitelli & Baltodano! YAY ! haha. they're heckka weird tho. on some of the rides they made a cockblocker song. wth ? and they were dancing. hahahah. by the end of the day they got me tired. aha. i had a massive headache tooo. but i still went on rides w. them. overall my day was wonderful. even on the bus when i fell asleep. haha. boys are dumb. i figured out what they were talkin about even if they did use code names. haha. yeaup. now im at meagans house. eating a bagel. waiting for meagan to wake up. emerald is coming later.
goodbye (:

May21,2009.

hm. man i am sooo excited for school to end already. this year has gone by soo fast. i cant believe me & meagan are still friends after all these years. craazy huh. i got my dresses and everythaang. tomorro is marathon day! helllla juiced. i hope me & audrey do good when we sing. im soo nervous. i never sing in front of big crowds before. hula is soo much fun w. friends now. shariel is going! YAY. S-deja should go tho. shes a loser. so im heckka bored. "all the cute things you do simply tickle my heart (: " i love that soong. i cant wait to be a FHS bandgeek (: <3 MUSIC IS MY PASSION. haha. its wonderful. blahblahblah. yesterday me & audrey & lauren were playing w. poi balls. hahah it was funn. we had fights w. them. im going to audrey's house later! YAY. man. blahblahblha. k i think this is done.

k bye (:

updateee.

hmm, sorry i havent been bloggin lately. i been so busy. w. band comps. hula. mussic lessons. school. everything has been gooing on. well lets see. im at home w. bria right now. shes buzzzin. HAHA ! kids are sleepin, and britneey is watchin tv. im textin MaynardFRESHH(: its like 12:04. tired. today was pretty coo. last night i went to brias. was on the roof like for heckka long. then we went to the mall, watched obsessed. white bitcch is crazy! hahah. well yeah. i officially give up on boys. -___- sucks ass . im heckka ready to get out of middle school! helllla excited. next weekend, shariel, kanoe, & brittany are comin over. then we makin hellla food. friday is gonna be marathon day. HELLLA JUICED. then chuck e. cheese later! then the next day is great america (:! then the next weekend is dinnner dance. and then next week is gonna be promotion(: OOOH ! im so excited. hahaha. but its gonna be sad. ill cry to leave my lil 6th graders.haha. but yeah. ima call it a night. GNIGHT (:

Like I don't even kno,

Dude. How could I even be confused over two guys I is met ! Wth !

1) wth dude. You get my #. Then leave. Ugh. I understand that you don't have you phone but like wow. I don't even believe you like me for ONE minute. Everyone is like "_ likes you. Blahblah." but like no cus we don't talk. I shouldn't even carr tho cuz your not worth it since we js met. Buhhhh idk dude.

2) I swear. I don't like you like that. Why don't you understand that ! You lie to me all the time. I KNO those thing he said aren't true . Ugh dude.

I give up on you guys. So QUIT talking to me . Cus obviously you don't care.

dang

I hate how I meet cute guys but then they're not in your area. Lmao. Gosh! No decent guys here.-_-
So like; as I was waiting for meagans eye doctor thing to end. There's this cutie at the mall. And he's hrckkka cute ! And he asked for mynumber. Too bad he's goes to green valley. Errrg. Hopefully cute guys are gonna be in high school. Bleh! But yeah. He's a cutie (;
Kbye !(: <3

i honestly dont care.

if your my friend or not. its js bullshit and drama. everyone is full of crap nowadays. i admit. i am too. but im coo with that shit.

dude. its honestly MY life. its not like i HAVE to tell you everything about my life. everything that goes on every effin minute. really tho? respect that. but you dont get it. it shouldnt even matter about those things. but whatev. idc.

really tho KID. i honestly dont really care if you turn against me either. cus i never really cared in the first place. yeah. i js want you to kno. IT DOESNT EVEN MATTER. dont do a prank, if your js gonna turn around and apoligize, and all those times i came to you with my problems? wth dude. i didnt even want to come to you. you were js there when i was telling someone else. and you butt in. js like that time in 3rd period. i was telling S__. and you come " what happened " the fuck? so i told you. so what. oh fuckin well. your js another person. doesnt matter to me.

like really tho.
but im deciding its a fuckin waste of time. its whatever to me. i got better things to do than sit around here js listening to this shit go on and on and on. so uh yeha.



BYE .

March 12!

Lalala. I'm bored. Today was pretty coo. I love hanging Out with jack and Jameson. It's so fun' they're hecka dumb. Lmao. Jk!(: yeah .

Kbye.

P.S. I miss you.

The Great Mall.

has sooo many hot asian guys. picked up a couple today. hahahaha. but yeuh. so i went shopppang ! it was fun. I love the new shirts I got !

So omg. Today I went to the library, and did my homework. It sucks cos I couldn't find a good boook. Then later at hula. I was reading to Reese, and I was hrcka loud. Then out of nowhere the music stopped and I was still reading outloud. Me and sienna started laughing hrcka much. Yupyup. So I'm hecka sleep.

So gnight(: <3

blahhhh.

omg! School is so boring nowadays huh. Haha. So like me and Jameson, jack, eddie and others are married ! Lmao. I'm so bored. Iono. Blahblah.


Kbye.

Today.

Was better than I thought it'd b. I was a bit sad. But I ended up being okay. After school I walked home with kuya Richmond! Ahahaha. Talked about funny things. But yeeuh. Then hung out with meagen and jack. It was hecka fun. Yeeup. So.

I miss you. But iono. I need to let go. Everyone is saying it's mosdef not worth it.You won't change for me so what's the point. Iono. It isn't worth waiting for something that's not gonna happen. So fuck it.

Kbye!




P.s. I love you.

Iono.

I'm so confused. I don't understand you . What happened was my bussiness not yours. It was my mistake. So whatever. Im sorry. I could take it anymore. I was tired of being that girl that didn't exist to you. I was tired of being neglected and ditch. I was tired of not having attention anymore. I was tired of everything. I js couldn't do it anymore. You didn't apprciate how I gave you everything. I tried to give you space. I tried not to get attached. I tried to do what you say. But it seems like you took it for granted. You liked other girls, you did whatever you want. And whenever you felt like it, you came back. Well I'm NOT your puppet. I won't bow down when you say to. I'm not doing it anymore. Absolutely not. I like you still. Maybe even love you. I prolly won't be able to get over you. But I'm sorry. I'm done.

damn.

you have no idea how disgusted i am with you. yoou really make me feel like i made the HUGEST mistake of my life by giving you another chance. im tired of hearing these stories of you and this girl. IM FUCKIN SICK OF IT. i want it all to stop. but your not gonna change. i kno your not gonna. so whats the fuckin point of even telling you how i feel ? its a waste of time anyway. but nah. i gotta. i gotta get it into that fuckin head of yours. you really pissed me off today. like i have no respect for you anymore cus of it. i dont have respect for her either. hun. get outta my life. you ruined the picture. i wish you werent there.

HELLLLA JUICED !

going to SF with my FAVORITE COUSINS TODAY ! so excited. they're hella cute. i laahv em. but yeah. im like waiting to leave cus im already ready and they arent. lol. well idk what to type.
SO BYE ! (:

ugh .

wow. im patient with you. i give you anything you want. i leave you alone when you need to be. i leave you with your friend when you want to be. i give you space, i give you time. I GIVE GIVE GIVE AND FUCKIN GIVE. im not askin for anything in return, besides a lil attention. i want to feel secured. i want to kno that you "like" me. today, during lunch was the FIRST time you really showed me you cared. then after school, wth ? i grabed you from behind, and you walked away. walked away like i was js somebody else. well ahem. *NEWFLASH ! im not js somebody. IM YOUR GIRLFRIEND. but lately, seems like i dont carry the title of your girlfriend. seems weird. yeah, things have changed since i found out. i FORGAVE you. never mentioned it again. i stayed with you. i was mad at you for a day, when i shouldve been mad for a monthh. yenno, i thought you wouldve showed more, thought you wouldve showed you really want me back. i thought alot of thigs about you. i thought you changed. well, i guess i thought wrong.

ahaha. wow. you dont give me attention. but you give it to her. this week has been shit. i dont show it. but it has. we dont talk. we text. you dont even text me thho, i text you first. then you say "brb" but what. never even a text back. it hurts. yeah it does. alot. you have no idea. its like you talk to __ and __ more than you talk to me. its like your givin all of you to them. not me. its like they're getting your attention. its like im not getting any at all..


whens the last time we said i love you ? hm, 3 weeks ago ? why the sudden stop ? i have no idea. well, i want you to kno i DO love you. i never stopped. since 42607, to 53107. i loved you. all summer, i never forgot about you. when we started our lives together again, on 82307 i fell in love. till 72208, i loved you still. TO THIS DAY, i still love you. never stopped. but you told me not to fall in love. not to get attached. but too late. i already been in love.

i complain alot. thats what i do. you dont hear it tho. havent you noticed anything at all ? you have no idea how long ive been feeling this way. but nope. i dont want to complain to you anymore. cus i kno what you'll say. i kno how you are.



i dont kno anymore..

ahaha.

ahaha, i havent written in awhile huh ? well ima start again js cus (:
well, uhm. lemme see. i recently got out of a relationship. s'okay. we're friends.
but i got my love back. which is GREAT(: uhm. life is oooober boring eh ?! yeaauh it iss. iono. im on aim, talkin to kevin bout peoples. its depressing how gay guys are cute. LMAO. its tru thou ehe ?! aha. so, my cousins are comin to live with us. they're drivin from florida, YEE ! (: its exciting. comin soon ! YAY ! so yeuh. bleh. im bored.

KBYE ! (: