a new beginning.

when i got back to school, i thought it would be easy. easy to look at you and be like "we're js friends". and watch you flirt with other girls. but honestly, i cannot stand it. knowin im not THAT GIRL anymore. i was hoping for a new beginning, new friends, new BOY. but hmm. everything came true, yet im still holding on to the LAST boy. why ? maybe cus i was soo in love. maybe cus i fell for him soo hard. maybe js maybe, i thought he was the one. i wish i could let go. i honestly wish i could. i KNO you like me. but at this point, i wish you didnt. cus it doesnt help me get over you. cus right now, it feels like US can only be friends. but oh well. friends is fun i guess.


i mean we're all still young. no need to fall in love so fast. but ive learned so much from that relationship. things i CANNOT explain. but its good things. things like, trust. commitment. and love. (=

whatever happens. i DO care about you. i DO love you. but maybe, not love you in that way anymore. and if you need me. im here. ALWAYS.