im freaakin out.

okae i dont kno what to say right now. so party this saturday right ? "Rara" litto brothers. alright. i was just a little scared w/ that part. POOL PARTY ? holy shit, im just fcking scared all the way. what if she touches you ? what if she says something about you ? what if she makes a move ? baby, your askin me if im alright, if im okae with it, if your aloud to go. yeah yeah yeah, i say YEAH. but am i really ? i dont want you to miss out on parties of your old friends just because im uncomfertable with it. so i say yeah. but yenno, im hella freakin out right now. like no joke. on the phone, i was NOT okae. but you kno what, im trusting you. like im hella trusting you like never before. if she does anything, i doubt you'll tell me, but please tell me. so i kno you aint hiding things. but man, im freakin out right now. i just hope nothing bad happens. or at least the things i THINK that will happen wont. just behave. please, just behave. im trusting you.

<3

damn, can you believe we made it through the school year ? together. we fought through those rough times, and all the shit we've been through. i never knew i could do that until i met you. this year, has been the best year ive experienced in so long. & you were with me the whole waay. even though we had our depressing moments, we still made it baby! haha, you wiped away my tears, you put a smile on my face everyday, and we took care of me even when i didnt need it. i love you and thank you so much. this summer, i dont kno how im gonna survive not seeing you. its just so hard. i long to talk to you at least for five minutes. but when you hang up, i get so sad cus those 5 minutes, felt like 5 seconds. everyday i wanna kiss your soft lips. just to be in your arms when you give me those wonderful hugs. every night i wish i could just sneak out with you and look up at the sky with you. right now, as you can prlly tell, i want to be with you. and never let go. i miss you so much. you dont even kno how much.



i love you baby.