confused.

during the fireworks, all i could think of was you. i was wishin you would be there holding me. when i was wathing transformers, all i could think of was you again. your always on my mind. every night & day. thats why i cant have this when your so far away. when i date, i dont wanna have another guy on my mind.

i like you. but your js too fckin far away. i dont wanna be friends w. benifits. the more we do together, the more i get attached. & it js too complicated. i wanna go out & look for other guys. but i cant do that knowing that we're somewhat together. im sorry if i hurt you. but if you didnt get hurt, then good i guess. i wanna be good friends. i never wanna lose contact. whenever you visit, i still wanna kickit. i still wanna talk to you, but none of that "hey baby." or the "other" things we say. i miss you tho. alot. so much, it kindof hurts. it hurt me to tell you that i js wanna be friends, & i cant do this anymore. im sorry.

i miss you tho. alot. Come back Simon Fruithof. so then things wouldnt be so difficult.