Christmass '08.

was not a good one this year. bboooring as hell. aint got shit. but whatevs. got annoyed. EH. texted babe all day. that was okay i guess. cant wait to go home. DAMN. alright, cousin lookin over my shoulder. BYE.

addicting.

books are addicting! ahhaha. well the ones that are interesting. in two months i finished about 4 series ? hahaa. my alltime favorite is TWILIGHT ! oh yes. the movie was frickin awsome. i LOOVE edward and emmet <3 sooo hott. hahaha. anyway. im soo bored. blahblah. i miss him ./= yeah. i guess ? YEAUPP. theres been drama lately. prettaay gay. HAPPY BIRTHDAY IVY ! and Bria's birthday is almost here!! yaaay ! im so excited for her party. hahaha. then Joe's party next weekend ? YESSS ! (: anyway, im reading a good book kindof, freaks me out. hahaah. anyway. ima go read. byebye(:



your my brand of herion<3

nowords.

yesterday was pretty fun ? haha. i guess so. school was thee same. ran. /= hella tired. got a bad time. 4:32. ughh. Nick B. and Kenny hella pushed me at the end. AGHH ! boyfriend came when i was in p.e. hella gay. i looked ooogly. haha. then i saw him when i looked good. haha. i'm not concieted. (; HAPPY ONE MONTH BABE(; i love you! ran around the school for a while. js cus im bored. then me and meagan hadda walk home. js cus my mom left cus i walked too slow. hahahah. walked with Raven mostly tho. then met with Meagan later. she walked slow. -__- then went home. meagan stayed over. fun asss niight. kids were gone. parents left. although we fell asleep at like 12. haha. i was fckin tired. so goin out tonight. party in SanJose or something. not so excited. kbye(:

(:

Edgar Allen Poe.

his poems scare me at times.. hehe. i'm memorizing Annabell Lee. such a sweet poem. i memorized this much so far..

it was many and many years ago.
in a kingdom by the sea.
there lived a maiden whom you may know.
by the name of annabell lee.
and this maiden, she lived with no other thought.
but to be loved and be loved by me.

i was a child, and she was a child,
in this kingdom by the sea.
for we loved with a love that was more than love,
i and my annabell lee.
but we loved that winged seraphs of heaven,
conveted her and me.

thats all i kno so far. i swear i didnt look at the paper. hahaha.
g'night breh.

11.13.08

interesting day today. hung out with jesse at lunch. aha. lil boxing here and there. always be messin around with the couusin. ate ALLOOT. haha. like always ? YeaupYeaup. hm. sixth period was interesting. played competitive kickball. haha always fun. then AFTER. fucktho. dont touch me. how many times i gotta say it ? DONT TOUCH ME. but nah. always wanna start shizz. whatev. anyways. told jesse. shiiit he lucky i stopped jesse. nigga crazzzy. hmm. went home. met up with meagan. found out some shitty news. cried for a bit. fucktho. thats hella fuckedup. i aint tryna trip over it no more. "i aint even trippin shawty, i aint even mad" baby made me happy tho. hella juiced for tomorro! its our one monnnth. hehe. went by fast eh ? Yeaup(=
i lalalLOOOVE you baby(=

fck.

you KNO you always be sayin shit bout. i dont get my shit mixed up, so dont try to lie. i got my sources. wtf tho. i BEEN outta your life. we BEEN over. so why the hell every fuckin time my name be comin up you gotta say some rude shit. dont call me ugly. dont call me a hoe. dont call me a crazy asian pysco bitch. dont say ANYTHING unless i said some shit first. damn tho. i hella thought i was in love WITHYOU ? wth happened to you tho. whatever. that was what USED TO BE. people change. too bad you change for the bad. damn tho. you KNEW i cried. and you KNEW that hella hurt. yet you have nothin to say to me in person. when i was fuckin STANDING RIGHT THERE. but you gonna text me. wow. whatta pussy. i have nothin to say to you. if ya want me out of your life. FINE. im gone.

whattabeezydoe

soo many thangs are goin through my head. i feel like i gotta fix this. i aint leavin school with bad terms with anyone. expecially you. c'mon now. we aint even aquaintences no more. idgaf about we over. idgaf bout anythin but like how we dont even talk and you hate me. and i didnt even do shit. wtff. i couldve stopped it. i fuckin tried. but guess not eh.? everyone i love is driftin away. everythin is good one moment. the next is fuckin hell. wth tho. i cant stand this shit. rumors. bitches. you dont even get it. try lookin at my perspective. dont even give a fuck bout how i feel. i guess it doesnt matter huh. fuckin shit tho. gay as fuck. i fuckin hate this. one life is perfect. the other isnt. i got shit goin through my head everyday. wonderin wtf can i do to make it rright. but NOTHING can huh. i guess not. im happy, or i think i am. well i am. im js not happy that im hated by the ones i used to love. nobody likes that. not even you. but i dunno. life isnt perfect. i guess i js gotta live withit.